Post by laughingeyes on Aug 6, 2005 22:12:11 GMT -5
well here I am again.
my names britt. those of you who have been here since the very beginning of the site will already know me. I used to be the top poster for a very long time, and I was a mod person. but then some shit happened and I had to leave.
I'm back...at least for now. I miss everyone, Barb, Claire, Brett, Brandon, Katie, scott, kevin, FTF, Mishka, Steph, A, Z, Fe, Jen, and well...everyone.
heres my story for those of you who dont know me. I'm sixteen, almost seventeen, and I'm going into my senior year at walled lake western. I started cutting at the age of fourteen, during the middle of my freshman year. It all seems like such a blur now. maybe I partially started it because of stress from my parents, maybe partially because I couldn't handle all of my friends and their depression, maybe partially because of my own depression and cyclo-thymic disorder....I dont know. All I know is that I regret ever picking up that knife for the first time, and I want to stop.
around june or july after my freshman year I was doing well, and I stopped for quite a while. But then a year later I was back at it again. I told myself that it was no biggie, and that I would only do it every once in a while. but every once and a while turned into every day, and every day turned into every few hours. It kept getting worse and worse until finally I cut a big gash all the way down my forearm with a knife in order to attempt suicide.
obviously since I'm still here it didn't work.
but the scars are still there. all over the place.
recently I have been doing very well, and I haven't cut since the very end of febuary. it's getting harder and harder every day, and I don't know if I can make it anymore. thats why I came running back. to see if I could find someone who doesn't go to my school to talk to. barb or claire, we need to talk badly.
I love you all.
ps. I love the modifications to the site. the jokes and randomness section was MUCH needed, and the quick reply thing is cool and well...everything is cool. I hope we can keep OO going.
my names britt. those of you who have been here since the very beginning of the site will already know me. I used to be the top poster for a very long time, and I was a mod person. but then some shit happened and I had to leave.
I'm back...at least for now. I miss everyone, Barb, Claire, Brett, Brandon, Katie, scott, kevin, FTF, Mishka, Steph, A, Z, Fe, Jen, and well...everyone.
heres my story for those of you who dont know me. I'm sixteen, almost seventeen, and I'm going into my senior year at walled lake western. I started cutting at the age of fourteen, during the middle of my freshman year. It all seems like such a blur now. maybe I partially started it because of stress from my parents, maybe partially because I couldn't handle all of my friends and their depression, maybe partially because of my own depression and cyclo-thymic disorder....I dont know. All I know is that I regret ever picking up that knife for the first time, and I want to stop.
around june or july after my freshman year I was doing well, and I stopped for quite a while. But then a year later I was back at it again. I told myself that it was no biggie, and that I would only do it every once in a while. but every once and a while turned into every day, and every day turned into every few hours. It kept getting worse and worse until finally I cut a big gash all the way down my forearm with a knife in order to attempt suicide.
obviously since I'm still here it didn't work.
but the scars are still there. all over the place.
recently I have been doing very well, and I haven't cut since the very end of febuary. it's getting harder and harder every day, and I don't know if I can make it anymore. thats why I came running back. to see if I could find someone who doesn't go to my school to talk to. barb or claire, we need to talk badly.
I love you all.
ps. I love the modifications to the site. the jokes and randomness section was MUCH needed, and the quick reply thing is cool and well...everything is cool. I hope we can keep OO going.
I have a feeling that we'll get to know eachother pretty quickly. I'm doing so-so. so how are YOU? haha 
